Mode:

*quoted on February 25, 2009 from One Note*

Hectic but fun day. I got to be the commentator for the mass again after 2 years of running away from that job. I got to lolz around again. I went home early today through Dade's car. I slack off probably because the contact lens came and I was busy "welcoming" it. I didn't do anything productive because I was awesomized by the awesome brushes from the awesom CS4. I got the authentication code only in first trial. Gawd~ I am really lucky todaylsfkjkljsdlflkls;d


*entry written on Marchi 1 and published today March 13, 2009*

I read a previous journal entry from this One Note. I can't help but lolz at my mood. Because after that came the mad Louise turning over her whole cabinet to look for her swimming cap. I was really angered and then after some cry moments and searching, I found it on my sister's closet. I made my mom and sister fear me~ Haha, I guess. Thursday was swimfest and I'm surprised that I joined this year. I would usually make-up excuses of not swimming in the previous years but I guess I'm not a child anymore who will avoid things like swimfest. I thought that was a fun day, but an issue occurred and I'm the main suspect of it. I was in a real situation of life or death, the assistant head directress was behind me when I said to the office people that I texted Mr. Alex about the card (Texting or any form of communications are not allowed between student and teacher). I was in great depression and was paranoid. My friends cheered me up that the incident would not be reported but I always believe in the bad side and so, like always, I got reported. I received a call from my adviser and told me that it's really their job to report me. I got a lot of people in trouble and it's me who's really at fault. People around me are telling me to cheer up and don't worry about it. I don't get them, they were put in trouble, a form of hell, because of me. Shouldn't they just rub it? Not stay carefree and all and say that it's okay we won't leave you? I really don't get it. For me to pay for causing trouble, it's better for me to take all the blame by myself and suffer , but why are they saying that they will fall along with me? Even my adviser who’s at risk of losing his job was on a cool and carefree mood and so are the others. Shouldn't they just hate me? For me that's much better *nods*

Friday, paranoid moments continued. I didn't eat breakfast and was not in a mood to eat or enjoy things I want to enjoy. My class knew about the issue and I informed them of the formulated plan. I was expecting that I'll be called to Ms. A's office but I wasn't. Later on, I heard from Mr. A that Ms. A just left me a message without anger or any forms of that. I was a little relieved believing that she took it as a small issue. We had class picture that day, I was not in a mood especially that I'm wearing a Filipino costume with a Chinese hairstyle I preferred to somehow calm down my senses and focus on lessons. After the issue kind of left me, I had the guts to hate people who made my day really the worst. Thanks to some people who made me happy. You guys are the best advisers!

From those three days, a cycle came up to my mind. For the first 90% of a period in time, you are doing good and happy only to be messed up by the last 10% of that period which will put you in pandemonium. I am expecting that to happen, compared to everyone else, I'm really late in doing requirements and before I do that, I have other tasks and responsibilities in school that I have to do first. My time's a little messed up now and I'm not accepting any enjoyable things for a moment. Hell week is this week and based on my calculation, even on my 3 day weekend, I can only finish half of the requirements and on my school days, I can probably finish half of my weekend half. And now that I suddenly thought of cosplay, my desperation of paypal is coming back. ~Grrr! I'm afraid of extending school, I have given up my grades for my requirements, isn't that enough? *wails in depression* Anyway, I got to save sleep to move for the next days. Good luck to me.

*Note for today

CLASSES ARE FINALLY OVER! There are lots of things that I will post here since I didn't have a time to post lolz here. For this summer, more goals were formed on my mind. I'll be reviving my accounts and open new accounts. I'm really excited and I'm looking forward for an awesome summer break! The official start of my summer post starts after this entry. I hope everyone will also enjoy their summer! XDD

Mode:

*quoted on February 25, 2009 from One Note*

Hectic but fun day. I got to be the commentator for the mass again after 2 years of running away from that job. I got to lolz around again. I went home early today through Dade's car. I slack off probably because the contact lens came and I was busy "welcoming" it. I didn't do anything productive because I was awesomized by the awesome brushes from the awesom CS4. I got the authentication code only in first trial. Gawd~ I am really lucky todaylsfkjkljsdlflkls;d


*entry written on Marchi 1 and published today March 13, 2009*

I read a previous journal entry from this One Note. I can't help but lolz at my mood. Because after that came the mad Louise turning over her whole cabinet to look for her swimming cap. I was really angered and then after some cry moments and searching, I found it on my sister's closet. I made my mom and sister fear me~ Haha, I guess. Thursday was swimfest and I'm surprised that I joined this year. I would usually make-up excuses of not swimming in the previous years but I guess I'm not a child anymore who will avoid things like swimfest. I thought that was a fun day, but an issue occurred and I'm the main suspect of it. I was in a real situation of life or death, the assistant head directress was behind me when I said to the office people that I texted Mr. Alex about the card (Texting or any form of communications are not allowed between student and teacher). I was in great depression and was paranoid. My friends cheered me up that the incident would not be reported but I always believe in the bad side and so, like always, I got reported. I received a call from my adviser and told me that it's really their job to report me. I got a lot of people in trouble and it's me who's really at fault. People around me are telling me to cheer up and don't worry about it. I don't get them, they were put in trouble, a form of hell, because of me. Shouldn't they just rub it? Not stay carefree and all and say that it's okay we won't leave you? I really don't get it. For me to pay for causing trouble, it's better for me to take all the blame by myself and suffer , but why are they saying that they will fall along with me? Even my adviser who’s at risk of losing his job was on a cool and carefree mood and so are the others. Shouldn't they just hate me? For me that's much better *nods*

Friday, paranoid moments continued. I didn't eat breakfast and was not in a mood to eat or enjoy things I want to enjoy. My class knew about the issue and I informed them of the formulated plan. I was expecting that I'll be called to Ms. A's office but I wasn't. Later on, I heard from Mr. A that Ms. A just left me a message without anger or any forms of that. I was a little relieved believing that she took it as a small issue. We had class picture that day, I was not in a mood especially that I'm wearing a Filipino costume with a Chinese hairstyle I preferred to somehow calm down my senses and focus on lessons. After the issue kind of left me, I had the guts to hate people who made my day really the worst. Thanks to some people who made me happy. You guys are the best advisers!

From those three days, a cycle came up to my mind. For the first 90% of a period in time, you are doing good and happy only to be messed up by the last 10% of that period which will put you in pandemonium. I am expecting that to happen, compared to everyone else, I'm really late in doing requirements and before I do that, I have other tasks and responsibilities in school that I have to do first. My time's a little messed up now and I'm not accepting any enjoyable things for a moment. Hell week is this week and based on my calculation, even on my 3 day weekend, I can only finish half of the requirements and on my school days, I can probably finish half of my weekend half. And now that I suddenly thought of cosplay, my desperation of paypal is coming back. ~Grrr! I'm afraid of extending school, I have given up my grades for my requirements, isn't that enough? *wails in depression* Anyway, I got to save sleep to move for the next days. Good luck to me.

*Note for today

CLASSES ARE FINALLY OVER! There are lots of things that I will post here since I didn't have a time to post lolz here. For this summer, more goals were formed on my mind. I'll be reviving my accounts and open new accounts. I'm really excited and I'm looking forward for an awesome summer break! The official start of my summer post starts after this entry. I hope everyone will also enjoy their summer! XDD